To be quite honest, 2017 sucked. Like a lot. Sure I’ve learned valuable lessons, and came out on the other side (somehow), and yadiyadiyada. But in retrospect, it sucked.
I failed. I got depressed. I got beaten down and barely got back up. I lost all motivation. I lost myself.
I’ve never been one to make new years resolutions, but I’m not sure what it is about that fresh, renewed feeling January 1st brings. I, all of a sudden, feel more ready than ever to get stronger mentally and physically. I’ve never really seen the purpose of writing down goals before. I’ve always been the type of person to “just know” what I want to do, then do it. That was until this year. Yesterday I started thinking about all the stuff I wanted to accomplish in 2017 but didn’t manage to… and I wrote them out for the world to see. Maybe that will keep me accountable?
Until recently, my goals have always been about “losing weight” or “getting a booty”, or anything appearance based. Which of course is still there in the back of my mind. But I decided to make 2018 all about health. And I mean, really get down to the nitty gritty of what is unbalanced in my stomach, sinuses, hormones, and brain. Once I get those sorted out, I figure the appearance benefits will just come along for the ride.
And some of you probably know, some of my main concerns I want to address are my IBS symptoms and GI health, my chronic sinusitis, and my mental health. There are several things that lead me to have extreme bloatedness and pain, leaky gutt, and gas. Which I mostly used to put off cuz I’d just say, “oh it’s fine I’ll just wake up tomorrow and look leaner and feel better”. Which I now realize is the completely wrong mentality. So my mantra for 2018 is:
Don’t ignore what you put in your body
Once I slip, I go into a bad downward spiral of processed food and dairy which is not how I should be treating my body. I want to nourish my body the way it deserves, to function the best it knows how. I bullied my body for years, and now it’s time to give back.
At the beginning of 2017, I used to laugh at vegans. Like how could someone’s mouth not water at a juicy, rare steak? I’ve done lots of reflecting on it the past few months, and although it’s not realistic for me to give up all animal products (hello, EGGS), I have decided to reduce my meat intake when at home. I’ve started to really enjoy veggie burgers, tofu, and tempeh, and haven’t had much of a craving for meat (But if you ask me out for a burger I will be there in a heartbeat).
Dairy products is something I’ve had huge issues with the last few years in terms of gut health. I haven’t drank cows milk for almost 3 years, which is a good accomplishment (asides from a Tim Hortons DD 🙄), but then that’s about as far as my commitment has gone. I’m trying to turn my mentality away from “dairy makes me sick” and toward “dairy products are not meant for humans, and are not good for me”. In other words describing myself less as “lactose intolerant” and more “dairy free”, if that makes sense. This is something I really want to stick to, but is going to be a huge challenge when eating at school and the exam cravings hit.
I’m hoping that converting my diet to dairy free, processed-food free (for the most part), and less meat intake will greatly help my IBS and sinusitis symptoms. How nice it would be to not have stomach pain and be able to breathe for once 😶.
In terms of exercise, I want to make huge progress this year. I want to get good at running, and become one of those people who “go run 10k just cause they feel like it”. I want to train to be able to run the sea wheeze half marathon in August, which I hope will give me something to work towards! I want to be stronger than ever this year. I want my lifts to be bigger and better week by week. And to do this, I need consistency. I’m usually good at keeping consistent and motivated in the gym… until I get sick. So I’m hoping the change in diet, and keeping up with my vitamins and stress relief will help to ward off future sinus infections 😷 (im literally writing this post from in bed with an awful chest infection).
So assuming I’m all better, I’ve got my training program ready to go for next week and I can’t wait! A combination of my lifting program, running program, with a little yoga here and there is surely going to change my life for the better. I’ve got my support system behind me, surely helping me stick to my dietary goals. 2017 tried to knock me down so many times, and sometimes it did. But I’m ready for you 2018, I’m ready to work my ass off to change my life for the better, and get back to being healthy!